
Trying to take all the right steps in life landed Azucena in an unfulfilling, uninspiring career as an engineer. Only after she gave in to her bathroom dancing habit did she find her real path to happiness.
Azucena's Story
"I'm crazy! Of course I'm not going to study dance!"
I was a software engineer for seven years. I went to college to study computer science. But for the longest time I'd had this passion for dancing, and I was really good at it since I was young. An engineer is the thing you're going to do because that's what your dad was, right? I thought, I'm really good at math, so let's do that. Even though I remember wanting to choose dance as a major for a split second I thought, "I'm crazy. Of course I'm not going to study dance! I'm not going all the way to the United States just to do that!"
So I had to choose the right thing, the logical thing, which was computer science. So I did, and I was really good at it. But, you know, even one year into it I was like, "Oh wait a minute, this is so strange. I don't feel like I belong here." And it took me five, six years to realize that I really didn't belong there.
"Dancing came back to my life."
My typical day in my engineering job I would be at my desk and had very little interaction with other people. I didn't have that outlet, so every now and then, I would take breaks to the bathroom. I would go to the ladies restroom with my iPod and dance for 30 or 40 minutes. I would make up steps, and then I would go back to sitting down and being an engineer. Little by little, I became more of a dancer and less of an engineer.
"I wanted to change my life."
I went to get a haircut from this lady -- she has her own hair salon. And she would say, "You need to do it. You would be really good at teaching dance." I remember one time saying, "I'm doing it Rosanna, I'm doing it. I'm quitting my job within a month." And then I never did. But because I said it, I had a commitment to myself to do it. I knew that deep inside I wanted to do it and I was just afraid. Months passed, and then I found myself competing in the World Salsa Championships, [and I finished] in the top six in the world. I thought, what if I really gave it my all? What if I really just did this full time for a year? I don't have to do this for the next 10 years. Maybe just one year. Two weeks later I quit my job.
"I remember being really scared, but at the same time, I was relieved."
When I quit my job, my boss was interesting. He was like, "You're dancing? That's what you're going to do?" And I said, "That's what I want to do, so thank you for everything and goodbye." You know, I wanted to run away. Leave that job. And I haven't to this day even gone into that building. I just can't go back.
"If you are this good at something you don't love, how good can you be at something you love?"
I found a book, This Time I Dance, and because of that book I finally quit. Now that I am a professional dancer, I'm not waking up early, which I love. I couldn't ever get to the office early -- I would try so hard. I would set three alarms, and none of them would work somehow. I do yoga in the mornings -- I need to keep my body flexible and healthy. Then I come into the studio, and I teach from noon until 8 or 9 p.m. Now that I'm a dancer, I feel like there are no limits. The possibilities are endless. I feel creative, I feel free, and I feel younger. I want to compete and win. I want to show the world how good I am.



