Despite our society's belief that everyone should work 24/7, my experience has convinced me that going without sleep or getting very little sleep for long periods of time (years) contributes, if not causes, health problems, among them depression.
I have experienced tremendous and numerous losses throughout life, including loss of health, friends and family, and each event would cause me to become "depressed", as a few psychiatrists and psychologists insisted. These professionals made me feel that I was abnormal for being sad for more than 24 hours following the death of a parent, a divorce, a job loss, the death of a beloved pet and numerous other traumas, tragedies and overwhelming challenges I still must face alone today.
Although I had at least six and sometimes a dozen of these types of losses each year practically since birth, for years I was always able to somehow find the strength to "pick myself up by my bootstraps".
It wasn't until I suddenly became unable to "push" my body with caffeine in an effort to go without sleep or with very little sleep to continue coping with the multitude of losses and constant and overwhelming responsibilities and tasks required by employers, life (plumbing, electrical, etc., problems) and so on that I became physically ill, followed by "clinically depressed". I wondered why massive amounts of caffeine and my "will" were no longer effective in forcing or pushing my body and mind to do what I had been able to make them do before. The diagnosis of CFIDS and fibromyalgia, along with other chronic conditions, by several doctors, gave me my answer.
Although I am a bit better (5-10 percent) due to a new medication for CFIDS, I still have constant pain that no medication seems to help. I am sleeping, but I feel "guilty" for sleeping and I likely wouldn't do it at all without a prescription medication. I feel guilty for not being productive 24/7, for not being able to catch up on everything that must be done, even though nearly every waking moment I have is spent on trying to catch up with paperwork, repairs, phone calls, appointments, etc.
If this were a different time, I would not feel guilty and would not be made to feel guilty for "resting" and/or for sleeping eight hours a night but encouraged to do so in order to speed my recovery. Surely, rest and sleep are two components of health and happiness that should be required in today's society rather than penalized.
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